2014 -> 2015

Alhamdulillah. 2014 berakhir jua.

Tahun penuh pancaroba I can say. I started this year with a bitter feeling. Problem and lack of chemistry plus our both immaturity, which lead to the bigger disaster - the break up thing. But I guess she is better off without me. I bid her farewell and du'a may Allah always protect her and so all her dreams will come true. The jodoh thing, rezki and in her whole life. May she always happy. I just not the one. With nothing, how can I have a lady stay beside me? Nope sir. Haha.

In early mid of this year, in the midst of the hangover from the breakup thing, I struggled with a series of failure in my studies. Group projects, tests, quizzes and of course the final year project. Urghhhh it is indeed a stressful phase of my life ever. Down giler. Pressure. Hopeless. Semua ada. I am totally terrified thinking the worst possibility that I might not be able to graduated as scheduled. Love make me strong but yes it make me fragile too.

Once again, aku menyibukkan diri dengan urusan lain. In the middle of this year, I started job hunting, get a few of interview invitations, and alhamdulillah, Allah grant me one of my 2014's target, I got a job offer a month before final examination. All praise be to Allah the Almighty. Once habis je exam, spend a few days in Terengganu then terus report to duty. Rushing but indeed I am happy and excited at the same time.

In the third quarter of this year, final semester examination result keluar. Syukur once again 3 pointer, although tak havoc sangat result tu. But hey, I am graduating soon. Hahaha. Happy jer kerja time tu. Then in September, applied for a week leave, spending time with WVU, WLN, WMF. Then graduation. Tadaaa officially a Bachelor Degree holder in Engineering. Alhamdulillah. The highest achievement in my entire life. Tak ku sangka penat elah study (read:sengtangdi) haha, just for me to feel that few seconds on stage getting an empty fake scroll from the VC. Haha.

Then make things better, sebulan after aku start kerja, boss panggil for private meeting with her and discuss about the salary increment. I am not expecting that at all. Wowww gila. Sepatutnya after habis probation period baru naik gaji, once again Alhamdulillah.

So for the rest of the year, I kept myself busy with work and studied the related stuff with my jobscope. Tapi rezeki datang. I got an offer to pursue studies in Master of Engineering (Manufacturing Engineering) under research mode, with monthly allowance of almost RM2000. Of course aku happy. Discuss with family and yes as predicted, Mama and Ayah gave me their full support. Because they both know this is my dream. And we all know this is really precious opportunity. Tak senang ada lecturer yang cari kita and offer buat master under them plus the allowance tu di provide sekali dalam offer. Plus, this offwr dos not come from my previous university. Basically, in simple explaination, yes aku dibayar just untuk belajar. Put aside the fees and cost for the research lah.

But after give it a deep thought, consider comitment with Miss A next year, nak menanggung miss A, plus long term saving and work experience yang aku dah start sayang, at the end of the day, I called my parents and told them that I declined the ofer. Yes, aku tahu diorang upset tapi for the sake of the future, this is the only way aku boleh secure saving, kerjaya and life in long term period basis. Because kalau aku accept, for 2 years income just sekadar nilai tu tanpa berubah. Sedangkan, I currently earn more than their offer, and I believed in that 2 years time period I can earn higher.

Terkilan itu ada. Tapi I trust my judgement and I believed this is the best for me. I took quite a long time to decide and istikharah du'a and whatever i can do. But, all that lead me to this. Rezeki master insyaAllah, masih ada tapi bukan sekarang. But seriously I am working hard for it. One fine day in 2015, maybe?

So for this upcoming 2015, I have a few life changing events lined up for me. And yes I indeed have a lot of expectations. Especially with the career thing and life literally. Hope everything just gonna be fine. And hope Allah will aways pouring me all these kind of rezki in whatever aspect it can be.

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Demi Mama, Ayahanda dan adik-adik yang aku sayang. ;)

Happy new year 2015.
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