"Awak. Awak still ingat tempat ni?"
Aku terdiam.
Sel-sel otak ligat bersambung.
Try link kan satu persatu event.
Ingat? Apa yang dia suruh ingat?
Even dia pon aku x ingat.
Ouchhh come on la Faqrul.
Aku garu belakang kepala yang x gatal.
Aku betul-betulkan cermin mata yang x senget.
Aku usap-usap rambut yang x jatuh.
Aku picit-picit jari yang x lenguh.
Dia macam perasan.
Sebab dia sengih.
Nampak gigi arnab.
Comel gila. Nak jer aku terkam. Haha.
No. Tak boleh. Aku ingat apa Mama dengan
Ayah aku ajar.
"Haha. If you can remember. The
exact first day of registration. Back then 4 years ago. Masa awak sibuk daftar,
and uruskan documentation and all the related stuff. Awak keluar masuk bilik
rehat siswa siswi dekat school Mechatronics. You know what? Ayah awak spend his
time walking all around this place, School of Manufacturing Engineering.
Looking through every piece hanging on the wall. See, that noticeboard? There,
he stood for a minute, looking through all the masterpiece drawings your
seniors had done. Thinking of how this place will be the memorable place for
his son. Tempat awak akan spend masa 4 tahun trying hard to obtain a degree. He
sure expect high from you. Hoping for your success one day. He sure proud of
you."
Dia senyum.
Aku diam.
Tak terlintas nak berkata-kata.
I am totally overwhelmed.
Overwhelmed dengan cerita dia.
Seolah-olah terlalu kenal siapa aku.
Otak makin kusut mencerna siapa dia sebenarnya.
Dia pandang ke arah aku.
Perlahan dia usap jari aku.
Menuntun aku berjalan ke sisi lain.
"Tu, Design Studio hujung tingkat
atas tu. Do you still remember that place? The "keranda"? Hahaha.
"Kalau kamu semua buat macam ni, kamu masuk keranda lah. x boleh pergi
jauh." Ingat tak Prof Ismail aka Prof I suruh satu kelas awak lukis plus
minus around 100 designs of pendrive as homework? Then dia suruh letak that
piece of paper contains all 100 designs onto the floor? Dia pandang. Dia puji
seorang dua. Yang lain dia pijak satu persatu. Yes, Fakhrul. Including yours.
Dia kata "macam tadika". Do you still remember? Sadis kan. Saya tau
masa tu macam-macam awak fikir. Boleh ke tak awak nak continue benda ni. Journey
panjang lagi ni. Or should you just ikhtiar tukar course or whatsoever you
could have done. Because I know, its hard to continue things you were not
intended to do. Kan? Lagi-lagi awak budak sains hayat. Budak biologi time
matrikulasi dulu. Gila from study pasal Merchantia species, Amoeba species,
Respiratory System, Pulmonary Artery, Bronchioles, Avioli, etcetera semua
term-term haram jadah tu. Then masuk U, awak sambung engineering. The worst
part is engineering yang involved dengan design. Gila. Mana awak reti nak
lukis-lukis ni kan. Awak bukan budak seni. Double heart attack. Kalau ikut
hukum biologinya, receiving double heart attacks means you could die. Totally.
Haha."
I wondered, mana lah Prof I sekarang.
Ada lagi ke tak.
Sihat ke tak.
Harap dia sihat.
Aku makin terdiam.
Semua yang dia cakap semuanya betul..
Semua benda-benda lama yang aku lalui
dulu.
Macam mana apa yang aku fikir pon boleh dia faham.
Mampu mencerna satu persatu pemikiran aku.
Sekilas dia pandang aku.
Dia senyum.
-BERSAMBUNG-
