Last sunday i spent my whole day lepaking and laughing with my small precious circle of friend. Laughing and talking about some stuffs-a serious stuff actually. About marriage, relationship, investment and life. All covered in this 24 hours period. What a day.
STORY 1 : DEAD END RELATIONSHIP
One of my friend-a lady, pouring down her reasons behind her recent break up. It might be cliche, but yes the break up thing comes from her. And obviously left her ex boyfriend in awe.
But the reason not as cliche as the situation.
"Perempuan memang perlu and sentiasa demand untuk rasa secure dalam hala tuju relationship dia. And this guy here. Is not the one. No plan at all. And i cannot afford to waste my time over someone that is not commited in serious relationship. I rather be alone than live in uncertainties. I can stand and fight for this relationship if only he a little bit serious about us. Serious tak bermakna kalau di mulut. Bukan di akal. Plan kahwin langsung takde. Mana nak letak hala tuju life kitorang? And he expect me to entrust my life on his hands? Let alone life plan ke plan anak2 ke kalau wedding pon takde plan lagi."
STORY 2 : POISONOUS PROPOSAL
While the other friend, share a rare story of someone-a guy, on how he was dumped upon his proposal to the lady of his life-or he thought so.
"Both suka to each other. So one day, this guy ask awek dia keluar. Bawa dating and set up for a very good and nice date. And the end of the date, he propose to the girl. Surprisingly, awek dia turned down the proposal. Caci maki that guy all the way sampai rumah. Reasonnya? Ridiculous. Perempuan tu demand why dalam relationship asyik dia yang berusaha show off dalam facebook and all other media social semua. Tapi lelaki tu tak pernah langsung. And she accuse lelaki tu tak serious and take her for granted just for not showing his public affection towards her. And there goes the wedding proposal to the drain. The guy clashed with the stupid girl for good."
STORY 3 : QUEEN CONTROL
And here goes another story.
"C got a girlfriend. C fell in love deeply with this girl of his life. Sangat menghargai awek dia. Set up a surprises. Attend awek dia. Teman awek dia. Tahan telinga kena caci maki. Tahan telinga kena marah. But hey perempuan tu still tak appreciate this guy. Regardless of whatever this guy buat, semuanya buruk di mata perempuan ni. Ditengking. Dimaki. Diherdik. Dikongkong walau nak keluar dengan circle lelaki sahaja. And marah kawan2 lelaki this guy sebab ajak pakwe dia keluar. And buat statement caci maki pakwe dia dekat facebook invitation wedding kawan lelaki tu. Nak unleashed to the whole world yang pakwe dia tak guna sebab bergaduh punya pasal. But still, that guys said he still love her. Cuma i doubt for how long. Aku doa dia tahan and perempuan tu berubah."
STORY 4 : PLAYBOY
This story dah jadi a few months back dah. Lama cuma ada kaitan dengan next story.
"Perempuan is indeed a gullible and mysterious creature dekat dunia ni. Hati rapuh. Mudah jatuh hati dan mudah terasa. It is a fact. So here comes this lady. Quite a fine lady sebenarnya. Have a good career. Cuma she lacking in relationship. Banyak relationship before ni failed. Until he met this guy. And somehow they get along very well with each other. Keluar dating semua. And that guy selalu ajak keluar and contact that lady. Which is obviously a hint, that guy have interest with this lady. So perempuan tu dah mula suka dengan lelaki tu and dah bayangkan pelamin indah. Siap dah bagi hint di media sosial yang that guy will be her niece future uncle. Sampai tiba-tiba kantoi yang sebenarnya lelaki tu dah ada awek. And bila di confront, jawapan lelaki tu mudah, dia cuma nak kawan je. And kalau dia bagitahu awal2 dia dah ada awek, takut perempuan ti dah taknak kawan dah. Which is a gross excuse sebenarnya. Maka laralah perempuan tu. Patah hati sekali lagi."
STORY 5 : PUBLIC AFFECTION
After end of story 4. Ditakdirkan perempuan tu di approach oleh seorang lelaki. Lelaki daripada story 2. And cut the long story short, they both fell in love. Since dua2 pernah kenal before this and dua2 sangat2 nak settle down and kahwin. They declared to be in relationship. And after 1 month, lelaki tu propose and they are now in their 2nd months been in relationship. Now tengah menghitung hari nak bertunang and getting married soon after. But, the biggest drawbacks of their happiness is the sweet lovey dovey stuffs they both posted online. Everyday not less than 5 posts about their love life together. Satu post pasal parents takde pula. Personally, I dont mind. Maybe bagus juga. Biar padan muka that mamat yang mainkan hati perempuan tu and that perempuan yamg turned down proposal daripada lelaki tu over something stupid. Its good they enjoy their life and appreciate each other. Plus, media sosial diorang. Its up to them. Until just this evening. I dont really agreed on this. They posted a picture online on how this guy is so sweet urutkan kaki this lady as a way of being considerate sebab this lady penat pakai heels and jalan lama on their date. Layankan rasa indahnya bercinta sampai guideline agama entah ke mana. Celah mana aurat dikecualikan dalam bercinta tanpa ikatan? Aku doa engagement diorang tak jadi and tukar jadi akad nikah terus. Biar dua2 terpelihara dari fitnah mata orang.
CONCLUSION
I just wonder. Betapa Allah sudah merupakan sebaik-baik perancang. Didatangkan pertemuan aku dengan kawan2. Dan tanpa perlu mereka tahu, dibukakan pula cerita-cerita ini. Buatkan aku mendengar dan berfikir dalam diam. Walau sakit yang aku rasa. Pedih dilemparkan kata nista. Perit dihumban beban disalahkan. Berat dihenyak serba salah.
Kalau sudah bukan jodoh, maka tidak akan pernah terjadi. Dan kalau tercatat di Luh Mahfuz dia jodohnya, makan secara azali akan terlengkap lah satu sama lain. Tidak perlu dipaksa. Tidak perlu dipersoal. Secara alami akan datang perasaan kasih yang membuatkan masing2 berusaha untuk melengkapi.
Hidup selepas akad "aku terima nikah....." bukan berkisar soal hati semata. Tapi jauh lebih dalam. Ketersediaan masing2 hidup dalam susah mahupun senang. Hidup dalam ketidakcukupan mahupum semuanya berlebih. Bernafas dengan tiada rezeki di kocek mahupun berkepuk di kad bank.
Perempuan itu mudah. Namun menjerat. Tiada perempuan di dunia ini yang ingin hidup dalam ketidakpastian perhubungan. Bila diberi kata mahu menghalalkan, perempuan berubah kata. Mahu bukti terbentang depan mata. Bila mereka berjauhan. Tidak terzahir de iris mata, maka segala beban dan usaha jadi sia2. Rela lah masing2 mencerna segala rasa dan jadi sebatang kara di pengakhirannya nanti. Usah digusar. Usah dirisau. Percaya pada kunfayakun. Kalau benar itu yang tertulis. Maka harungilah sepenuh hati. Allah tetap ada menemani selagi sejadah masih sudi terbentang dan dahi mencecah lantai.
Aku doakan kita bertemu jodoh masing2. Walau aku mungkin tidak akan berjodoh. Sebab aku tau diri dan hati aku. Aku still doakan kau merasa diakad sebagai seorang isteri. Dan lelaki itu bersedia menurut segala permintaan. Baik lokasi tempat tinggal mahupun harta benda. Cumanya aku harap, lelaki tu lebih teruk daripada aku. Mungkin jenis kaki betina. Atau kaki botol. Atau kaki judi. Atau jenis pemalas nak jaga anak. Atau jenis curang time kau baru melahirkan. Atau malas kerja dan kikis duit gaji kau. Atau jenis tak bayar nafkah. Atau jenis pukul anak isteri. Atau jenis kejam yang tak izinkan kau balik jenguk mak abah kau. Atau yeahhh yang buruk2. Baru kau sedar betapa menyesalnya ini terjadi. Lol. Nah i'm just kidding. Aku tak sekejam tu. Walau dah berguni doa buruk kau campak dekat aku and adik2 aku. Aku ingat sampai mati. Tapi tak bermakna aku nak kau sengsara sampai mati. Kan? Kau kenal aku kan. At least to that much. Yang kalau aku dah sayang. Aku sayang sangat. Sebab tu bertahun2 pada kau juga aku kembali. Cuma this time, hati aku dah hancur to the extent aku sendiri tak boleh nak pretend yang aku okay dan try to keep fight for you. This time kau tikam, pedang tu dah menusuk tepat ke semua organ penting aku. Semua organ dah rosak. Aku tak akan boleh survive for the next battle. Even breathing is hard now. I have to surrender, by killing myself. Better commit suicide by your own hands then being killed by your own opponent. The rule of a fighter. :)
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P/s : psl investment and life tu next post lah. Aku penat. Insomnia dah dkt dua bulan tak sembuh2. Effect pelamin anganku musnah ke?
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